What do you want from this course?

Well first thing is that i like science but i not in science stream when i was in secondary school , and the second best thing i do is drawing , so i choose design course and at first i was like wanted to learn animation and UTAR only gt graphic design course that got related to animation. Then when i study for this course i feel lost and don't know what i want for this course , i wanted animation because i like play games and wanted to learn those skill that to draw and create game characters and animation was the thing that come in my mind , but until now i still not sure what i want, as i study for my first semester i feel like i love to draw and is the only subject that i love the most , but even though i like it but i still not every good at it . i think i want from this course is that to learn how to          draw like pro and also to learn how to be creative because i know im not a very creative person . Although drawing is the most prefer subject for me but i also enjoy learn all those program like the Photoshop and Illustrator . I know im a slow learner but i also try my best yet is not good enough , i guess i just can't find the motivation and the target , and i think because of that i am lost and don't know what i want.